In few minutes I'm going to turn into a 25 years old young woman. Wow! I have mixed feeling now. Well, actually I don't feel any significant different. I'm still going to do my routine tomorrow. But the "twenty-five years old" label does mean something.
I'm very thankful to dear Mighty God for I've been through 24 years of my life quite smoothly. Well, doesn't mean that I don't problems but somehow I managed to deal with it. Thanks to HIS guidance and beloved people HE sent me. I'm happy and grateful for this.
On other point of view, I feel old. Hehe. Ok, that's exaggerated. I'm not old at all. In fact I'm might be at the peak of my youth. I feel older. I'm not an adolesence anymore. I've entered young adult-hood 4 years ago. I should've been good at handling this young adult developmental tasks. When I'm younger, I expected that I'll be working and independent by the time I reach 25. The fact is I'm still clinging on my parents. While most of my cohort have been on their middle area of career ladder or have been married and some have had kids. That give me certain pressure. I feel left behind them. I know, I'm working on my postgraduate degree now. I should've be thankful for it. I am thankful. But still, that pressure exist. To make it worse, I only have vague planning about my future.
Where will I work after graduate? Working for a company or a psychologist's bureau? On what specific area? When will I get married? Where will I live after that? Those are questions I can not answer firmly. I only know I have this dream to be a psychologist with relationship, marriage and family as my main interest and expertise. I also want to have a relationship-marriage-family clinic. Of course I also want to have a steady income to buy things I need, things I want also. The problem is I still don't know exactly how to make those dream comes true. I know that there will be steps. But, what's the first to take? Where could I find opportunity?
Thanks God, I begin to see some light to guide me to take that ladder to reach my dreams. Well, I'm taking little steps now. I join this Oriflame business. It's a multi-level marketing business. I used to disagree with it. But on second thought if it could give me benefits, why not? It's not like I'm not working at all. I'm aiming for a steady second income from the bonus point. Therefore I have to look for down-lines, maintain some purchasing point and so on. I joined earlier this month and very excited bout it. Next step is to make long term and short term planning regarding this business.
Ah, there are a lot of planning to be made. Oriflamme business, my future relationship-marriage-family clinic and my future family. Better start making it right now. Plus start to pray for it. Beside that gratitude and low self-esteem feeling on the same time I feel excited. I see my future as a challenge and I'm going to fight for it. I'm sure God will be with me in every step.
It's Monday, 21st of March, 11:50 pm. I'm turning to 25 and I'm ready for it. May God bless me and you too reader.
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